+here with me tonight+i speak+

I lied down in the arms of swaying daffodils..
And listened to the echoes that surrounds me..
I’ve watched the moving spirits around,
That gently touched my flesh with warmth..
They laid me in a hill overlooking the ocean..
With a cold breeze that touches my skin..

As the sun finally rest across the horizon
The cry of my fragile heart echoed..
Through the latent face of the sun..
I want to turn back the time
And seek the corpse of love..

As the wandering wind touches my soul..
My eyes is brimming with tears..
And felt the chaos in my life..
But if i lock myself and be a prison of fear..
The mask of misery and pain will reamin..

Let me end this pain.
Win my smile back.
Kiss me with your love.

Don’t be fooled from her sweet smiles
And those fair and starlike eyes
Never believe in her lies..
Coz you’ll be in grief and sacrifice..

Never enter the curse of her love..
Coz your soul might be torn..
You’re crossing in her boundless dark sea..
Along the shadows of her cruelty..

She’s numb, she’s worthless
Never give your love so true..
Don’t be blind, don’t be deaf..
Find a heart whose love is innocent..

Don’t be fooled on her face of immortality..
Never see her dying beauty..
She’s not the one for your heart..
She’s not forever..

[this is a poem i made when i was still in my senior year in high school.. ^_^]

im dying
im bleeding..
alone in a cold breeze of air…

the melancholy of my soul shows..
as i stare in my window, my tears follow..

im in a red-walled room
my eyes brimming with blood
suffering from the woumd of my heart

i want someone’s warm touch
i want to hear a calm voice
i need someone’s care
‘coz my soul’s giving up…

my soul’s trembling..
she’s running in an unending dark road..
seeking for life’s eternal happiness..

my soul is whispering, crying..
to fade and throw her loneliness..
she’s looking for the perfect piece..
that will make the puzzle of her heart complete..

[i know i'll find him.but not now.too early for me to see him.]

There were two hearts who met in a dance
That moment was magical and mystical
There was a sweet song playing

So there was Harmony until..

Love is in the air…

They met and finally the cupid struck
their hearts..

They build castle in their dreams…
They’d wished on the same star..
And promised forever with all certainty..

But…

Somewhere, in the midst of their magical
story, they got lost in the dance..
Something went wrong..
They can’t do anything..

Their fortress falling apart..

There were so many questions
But, no one could answer..

The music stopped and then.. there was silence..

——this is a short story though it came to be a poem.. ^^

ok.. may naalala lang ako sa day na toh.. it’s jan 20, ‘07.. oh yah 3 months ago.. hope this won’t be a bad day for me.. coz months ago, 20th was the most horrible day in my life.. ok well, as usual hindi ako masyado nakatulog kagabi.. i dunno why huhu.. somone’s bothering me.. i mean it "someone".. i dont know why but i remember that someone.. where is that person now? (sorry i can’t say him/her/she/he).. how are you? how’s everything now? hope to find the connection we had.. but uhmmm maybe that would be years till you’ll remember "chriz"..

Last night, I only slept for 4 hours and it was not even a straight,deep sleep. i was awake 1:10 am. so early so i have to let myself rest. when i finally got the mood to dream, i saw a blurry image on my mind. yeah right and where on earth did i get that nightmare? on that dream i saw a guy and a gurl. i guess they were both happy and yeah i saw the girl laughing out loud and she’s staring at me. i ran for myself trying to escape from the two of them and finally i saw someone who might help me wash away the tears (this is still on my dream). while i begun to tell the things that i saw, my friend just said "i have to go away from them and never ruin their happiness" .. wow! the worst thought i have on my nightmare. because of that i begun to cry out loud and scream the pain i have on my heart. then i woke up! yes! i woke up! but.. with tears on my cheeks.. i cried with pain just awhile ago. that was a real nightmare. people continue to hurt me on reality and on my dream! (sobs)

I sat down in the arms of the lonely ground
And felt the sorrow of the spirits around
In this catacomb, buried dreams i have found.
With solitary memories that surround

As I walk through the canopy of darkness
Souls in woe kissed the light above so endless
They crossed the boundless road of death in silence
But never failed to vision their longingness

The curse of death in all mortals shall remain
And every entity must feel its great pain.
I must kill the agony that guides my soul
And accept that life is fatal and may fall

As I lay my arms the life i have
I felt the warmth that touches my flesh gently
He whispers strength to continue my journey
And go miles away and search life completely.

–this was a poem i made when i was still in 4th yr h.s ^_^ –

kakatapos lang ng test namin ng fil102,eng102,natsci,socioanthro and hum101.. so how was the test? waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh ayan xe di maxado nakapagreview! huhu lagot ako, babagsak na yata ako this sem!! huhu .. taas lang ng grades ko last sem but i think for this 2nd semester oh well accept the grade of 3!! hehehehe.. exagge ba? pewo yun ineexpect ko eh waaaaaaahh.. help me.. give me some inspiration hehe.. dami dami kasi probs. from last year and up to now.. emotionally unstable, financial problems and alot more! hahaha dami noh? emotionally unstable?? xma? baliw ka na? wahahaha.. yeah i think so.. hehe..

cge magrereview pa ko ng anaphy.. huhu good luck sa akin and to the other bsn students jan!! lalo na mga freshmen.. hehe.. huwag sana ako mahilo sa test na ibibigay ni sir anaphy.. haaaaaayy..

sana bukas ok na ang lahat.. pagdarasal na alng gagawin para makapasa hehe.. ^_^

hi.. i miss posting on my blog.. yeah right.. well before i glue myself on my books for tomorrow’s exams i just want to say that im going to post my literary works soon ^_^.. im excited to post them!! pls. stop spying on my blog "kung sino ka man" i hate to see your name around my profile!! "huwag ka kasi makialam, kung ayaw mo na makarinig sakin ng masama" .. i know you.. "silent water runs deep" ..

well.. i appreciate the people who’s going to see my blog without any violent reaction.. hehe pewo if you want to comment back negatively (in the sense that you cant feel my poem or what) just don’t hate the writer.. thank you..

my freedom to write got so affected with the "things" that i write on my blog. now i have to choose the words that im going to utter here. i have no more right to talk about the past since a lot of people think it’s a big deal. now how am i going to tell the things that my mind is shouting on? do i need to shut up and keep it on my own even if it really hurts if it’s not expressed?

haaaaaaayyy.. i’ll just post a new entry next time that im really really happy so no one would get hurt..